DolCe DoLL

Madness

2011-07-29T13:58:00.003-10:00

Playing that tune

Trying to wake me up from this madness

slowly slowly

turning this world to an unstable form

everything i see

everything i know

werent the same as it was

All i can do is picturing

from the last coma

Milliseconds

2011-06-22T20:41:00.005-10:00

me
in the photo was never aged

you
in my mind was never the same

i never want to get out from the frame

to the world that changes in every milliseconds

you came, you moved, you change

but you will never be any difference

from the first and last moment i met you

Motivations

2011-06-18T20:17:00.001-10:00

why am i not surprised

of anything anymore

start losing my emotions one by one

from joy to trust

from sadness to anger

things become plain and boring

i become idleness and apathy

but still

i have a dream

a dream like a puzzle

which ive lost all motivations

of putting it back together

since i already lost most of the pieces

Chair

2011-04-12T11:24:00.003-10:00

act like an armchair detective

creating my territory of a five-step distance

just like how the words sound

a seat and i

thats pretty much everything

enough for me to play a game

which i wish for nothing else

but a solution away from weariness

貓

2011-04-09T23:05:00.003-10:00

不幸
一種感覺
唯一的感覺
能帶給我靈感創作

不幸
我慢慢的愛上了它
愛上了它帶給我的才能
愛上了這種自謔的嘲諷

無法停下敲擊鍵盤的手
停不下來的思緒
我的愛情僅侷限在文字下
在創造的生命中帶來安寧

有時
感覺到是否在無意識中
渴求的正是這份扭曲

有時
我是否害怕失去
在自己所剩無幾的擁有

期望跟絕望成正比
知識跟信任成反比
期望帶來了無謂的信任
絕望卻給了無價的知識

然而好奇心
讓我變成了薛丁格的貓

Hesitation

2011-03-04T02:43:00.004-10:00

What kind of face expression should i make

at the next intersection

to make a turn of left or right

left right left right

or straight down for another chance of choice

that could possibly fix my hesitation

Savior

2011-02-22T14:37:00.002-10:00

Open my hands to the other

to be a savior for another

in the end

where would i be?

a garden of peace in mind

or twisted spiral of recited

Devotee

2010-12-09T18:05:00.003-10:00

memory
is like drug

it follows you

follows and follows

when you realized
memories passed you and ahead
i become its devotee

i tried to get off from the bond

but still
i could
not...

Blindfold

2010-11-04T22:41:00.002-10:00

Please blindfold me

and lead me the path

out of this maze

lets play a game of trust

i will follow your words

which knew its gonna hurt

it was short, but

happiness stops at the moment i cried

cried for the pain you and i putting upon

there wasnt any promised

just full of dreams behind the words

Beautiful

2010-10-29T23:41:00.002-10:00

The most beautiful thing

is to die in dream

is to chase down the unknown

i could never imaging what would happen

after i fulfill the part

but so far

i felt wonderful

having a thing to risk my life for

last breath with smile

last view of you, with me

Remove

2010-10-21T23:59:00.006-10:00

Page by page
One by one

i start removing my past

any trace
any mark

all the recollection

inside the trash box which cannot be recycled

Hoping i can find a new me

to start all over again

in an unknown town

to a moment i could remove my reminiscent

out of the cage i create

with hand of saver

Forward

2010-10-21T01:05:00.004-10:00

[dream last night]

i was walking on the road of night

without any sight from feet away

friends start falling down one by one

as i passing them in every step

hands and body soiled with crimson blood

heat was there when i wipe it on my face

i know nothing

i remember nothing

but still

im heading forward...

Winter

2010-10-08T01:07:00.005-10:00

With my last cig

it was cold during a winter night

smoke mix with the mist coming out from my mouth

i was comfort

slowly slowly

burning as taking a breath of cheerless

cars moving below my feet like a swarm of locusts

im the only one

the only one who halt

in the busy late winter night

[inspiration from south coast plaza which i love the most]

Disarrayed

2010-10-05T12:18:00.003-10:00

How long i have not look in to the sky

after a long working day

How much struggle i have consumed

though out a daily life

that night, that moment

with that perfect scenery

deja vu with nothing to recall

i was disarrayed

Steelyard

2010-07-25T01:52:00.001-10:00

open my eyes
i can see everything
everything i thought would be true

shut my mouth
i wont tell a word
word of things i do no wish to speak

two of them balance on my steelyard
nothing more or nothing less
to change of who i am

Path

2010-07-24T01:12:00.000-10:00

unknown town
when i realized
im in somewhere beyond my memories

slowly walking
to the place i belong
the street lights have catch my eyes
i was infatuated
in the night

it wasn't important anymore
to find the way home
as long as the path
will leads me to an end

Bud

2010-07-23T01:31:00.003-10:00

nothing last
like a red rose
petals fade and fallen
as the time passed

but it was beautiful
while bloomed

only ignorant thoughts in me
that i can hear from the bud
a dolce voice
calling me
.........calling my name

カミ

2010-07-21T00:06:00.000-10:00

最近

めちゃ暑くって

髪を切っちゃいました

なんか

失敗作かな

超短いになった

まぁいいけど(笑

安いだし

ね

あしたの仕事が終わったら

久々の休日だ

楽しみ

駄目

2010-07-17T23:58:00.003-10:00

今日は

引きこもりの第二日

まぁ一応メシくらいに外に出るも

いろいろやることがあるけど

大体的には家の中だな、ずっと

でも

まだ

何も完成してない

画も小説も

あたし

駄目かな(笑

Light

2010-07-15T23:46:00.001-10:00

i do not like the light
it always tried to pull me
out from where i am

i do not like the light
it always tried to stick on me
with no where to hide

i closed my eyes
thought that i could escape
but all i can feel
is
you

Faith

2010-07-13T20:33:00.002-10:00

i cannot tell you why
why i need you

i cannot explain you now
explain my action have done

maybe you are reading this
maybe im just unable to maintain myself
in the cycle of live

i cannot wish you to understand
since i am not truly knowing myself
but i do know

is
that

i do have the faith in you
for everything

Inverse

2010-07-12T16:52:00.000-10:00

am i concentrating?

full of stuff in my head

is it only me, who tried to keep this going

really?

there is one thing

perhaps two, or even more

tell me

how many kiss do i need

to fulfill the part im missing

Fish

2010-07-11T15:07:00.002-10:00

im a fish

with vision on both side

but i cannot see straight

in front

i had never thought about going above

to the place without you

or to loose anything i have right now

all i can do is swim

inside this consciousness

不眠

2010-07-10T02:58:00.005-10:00

今日

いろいろがあった

なんか

寝れない

原因は自分なんですけど

鈍感のあたし

でも

その気持ちは間違いないよ(笑)

根性

2010-07-09T23:58:00.002-10:00

いつも根性がないのあたし

罰として

今日から

週３．４回くらいに日記を書けますｗ

あたしのタブレットも届けましたから

ちゃんとしっかりしないならいけないと思う

せいいっぱい頑張りますヽ(´▽`)ノ

dolce

2010-07-08T23:33:00.002-10:00

fiddle with my guitar

in the daylight of dawn

without any sleep

start pulling out the thoughts i had through the night

weave into a perfect match of the moment

to solve my wakefulness

to the dolce dream

両替

2010-07-03T21:00:00.000-10:00

(みほちゃんのねこ？かなｗ)

最近

もう一つの仕事を受け取った

両替の仕事さぁ

一応みると

簡単な仕事やけど

でも

きっちりしなきゃいけないだから

すでに疲れた

一周間のトレーニングと今週の実戦(?)

体はもうボロボロ

ラブプラス＋

2010-06-27T02:01:00.002-10:00

いよいよこのソフトを手に入りましたｗ
ＤＳは一台だけから連動が出来ないんだね
少々残念です(´･ω･`)

前よりいろんなものを入れましたのは聞きましたけど
なんのかな～と期待してるねｗ

頑張ります！　リンコちゃんｗ

Wish

2010-06-25T01:39:00.000-10:00

it wasn't something i was wishing for
not something i wasn't it back
as a memory

rather than leaving it all behind
im more wishing it could never left anything inside
inside
inside of me
like nothing happened

but still
every time i closed my very own eyes
it keeps calling
calling
calling me
like it needs me

i cannot see where the voice from
i cannot stop myself wondering
............
.......
what is it?

Aim

2010-06-15T05:08:00.001-10:00

aim at the point
which had caught my attention
with the movement of my arm
it turns to a perfect curve
that will fall at the place i want

not a lover or saver myself
for what i faced
it drops to the ground with expect
still
it disappointed me
because...

Forbidden

2010-06-07T00:53:00.004-10:00

She said the words

which i hated the most

which trigger the impulse

of the forbidden part of self control

that

i want to kill her

at least

yes, at least

just one second

i want to kill

her

Turing

2010-05-25T00:28:00.000-10:00

Turing at the next intersection

I start wondering

of left or right

I am alone without any sign

holding my cellphone and lost in this place

I am struggling

I am waiting

for the next signal

to direct me

out

コスプレ

2010-04-02T01:21:00.003-10:00

今年のイベントのために

コスプレの衣装を作り始まった

あと２週間半くらいの時間

三つのコスチュムを出してること

精一杯がんばるわｗ

ラブプラス＋予約開始

2010-03-26T01:32:00.000-10:00

あたしの本命はリンコやけど

ショットヘアのマナカもええねんｗ

確かにあの4ギガROMを採用は気に入ってるやな

DSiLL同梱版の購入が真剣に考えた　

アルトネコ３

2010-03-20T01:49:00.002-10:00

今日な

PSホームで人とチャットやってるとき

お勧めされたのRPGゲーム

アルトネコ３

一応、可愛い系らしいなゲームみたいな

なんと、こういうシーンもあるんだな

これはこれは...ちょっと欲しくになったわｗ

コレクション

2009-11-07T21:04:00.005-10:00

最近はPSNの友達いっぱい出来たし
そしてちょっと交流した
交換したの写真はこれです
あたしの部屋の一部
グラスケースとフィギュア
愛用ギターとアクセサリです

Name

2009-10-02T20:54:00.000-10:00

Your name?

just a sudden
in silence
i couldn't find an answer
for the question

its obvious what the answer is
something that have been repeat
over and over

but just
too obvious
too real to be true...

Perfect

2009-09-15T20:48:00.000-10:00

thing falls from edge
with slow motion

it draws a perfect line
straight down

i didn't realize
after a clear sound

i didn't attempt
to pick it up

....at all

Still

2009-09-05T20:45:00.000-10:00

walking down the hallway

where used to be full of people
where used to be the memory
........of mine

it was so quiet
so still
as if afternoon cemetery

cant believe
i cherish the thing which i hated the most
i hate it
i hate it
....really

燃え尽きたぜ

2009-09-03T21:28:00.001-10:00

学校や仕事が始まる
なんどか都合に合わせ出来ない
ちょっと複雑で...
まぁな、死にそうな感じやなorz

山のような仕事を終わら...出来ないかも
やる気もなしｗ
あたしの夏休みという時間を返せっよ

絶望した！人生に絶望した！
なんちゃって(笑)

一応...できる限り頑張りますわ

お台場

2009-08-13T21:09:00.004-10:00

友人からあげたの写真です
見たとおり、ガンダムの股間ｗ
長い列に二時間くらいの待ちに撮れた
悪くないなｗ
ありがとうモモちゃんｗ

ギター

2009-04-15T17:00:00.000-10:00

新しいエレキギターを買ったんや
YAMAHAのRGXA2
価格は＄４５０くらいなんやけど
ボクは＄２４９にゲットｗ
ホンマにやすぃな

ベースもほしいなｗ
まぁまぁ、
毎日一生懸命練習してまっせ～！

注射

2008-12-20T00:13:00.000-10:00

クイーン病院行きました
予防接種です

よく分からないんですけど、
上腕筋を押したり曲げると痛いです
今日は昨日より痛みが強く、
感覚が鈍って、不自然感じそう

そして、
しほりに会いました
ニジヤの中で
何か霊的なものを支配されている見たいし
凄い疲れ+寂しいそう

悪霊退散！悪霊退散！

日々

2008-12-01T09:48:00.001-10:00

いつの世も持つべきものは人脈だ

簡単といえば人間関係だな

ワイン同様熟成に時間を要する

持ってないなら何でもできない

学校も、仕事も

そうだろう.....

死んちゃう

2008-11-30T09:46:00.000-10:00

運動し過ぎ
腹筋と上腕筋痛い
明日はたぶん動かない(汗

でも、今回は自己ベスト
精一杯走れ
５マイル = ２０分以内
よしよし

本屋

2008-11-26T09:44:00.002-10:00

最近ちょっと余裕がでてきた
いろんな雑誌を買いたんや
まだ読めまへん（汗）

MonoMax
懐かしいのおもちゃ
ミニ四駆、ガンプラ......小さい頃のもの

CGWORLD
デジ絵、３D絵

COOL JAPAN
声優、店、聖地/名場面、コスプレ......etc

イライラ

2008-11-22T09:43:00.001-10:00

最近は確か
仕事と学校以外に
部屋から出かけないですけど
何でみんな
僕のことを「引き篭もり」と呼びました
ひきこもりのオタクって言うな
オタクだけも言うな

イライラする

京都

2008-11-14T09:41:00.003-10:00

両親は京都に旅行した
なぞの様なのモノを郵送して．．．．
今日は届けしたんや
ちっちゃい箱やな
早速に開けまっせ
．．．．．
．．．
．

なぜ全部"牛"だ!
うれしいですけど、まぁ．．．
牛はボクの好みとじゃうわ
勘弁してくれよ、ホンマ!

レンタル

2008-11-02T09:20:00.004-10:00

今日な、あのな
ビデオレンタル行ってきやんか
"エンタの神様"いっぱい借りしてきたTV
見るとき
途中にCMで流された
僕は"え！"って

これやは僕の家の前じゃねーか(汗

0:06 後ろの建築

僕達は何の為に生きている？

2008-10-21T15:28:00.003-10:00

「…………僕達は何の為に生きている？
人は目標を持たずに生きてゆけるほど強くはない。
誰しも必ず何かを求めている……
それが他人から見ればどんなささいな事であろうともな。
だからこそ必死で生きていくことができる……。
……しかし全てを満たしてしまったら……？
次は何を支えに生きてゆけばいい……？
自らの望みを叶えつづけ高みに上った先にあるのは果てしない孤独と虚しさだけだ
ならば自らに課した階段など登らないほうがいいのではないか？
そうすればいつまでも………
夢を見ていられる」

Solitude

2008-10-20T00:39:00.001-10:00

where the train stops
where to move on
it was an end as well as a begin
to the life of solitude

things will remaind the same
things will wait til the end
of the limite time in life
in a peaceful mind

New Job

2008-10-19T10:06:00.001-10:00

i start a new job working as a tutor
with middle schoolars and younger

so far the hours and pay are less the previous job i had
but hope it wont be too stressful...

夏待ち

2008-10-17T00:29:00.003-10:00

i was lost
on a straight path
i see a way up
and i stoped
start waiting...

アメリカに帰って来た

2008-09-23T05:51:00.009-10:00

１０日間ブレイク
最初は不本意や
おばはんのタメに帰ってやん
でもさぁ、その後な
意外に、
心や体を全部癒されたんな(笑
食べ物ウマイし
景色も懐かしい

台湾は僕の最高の逃げ場だなｗ

そして
久しぶりの幼馴染も会いだ
ツンツン萌え
みんな元気そうｗ

ちなみにあいつの萌え属性
＋幼馴染
＋メガネ
＋ショートカット
＋ツンデレ(僕と対する時はデレしない残念)
＋ツッコミ役

ハワイの悪友アンナベッラさん
ひとりぼっち
だからお見舞いに行きました
ていうかさぁ～
毎日毎日寝る過ぎて何や！
だめ人間とクレジットカードや同じ
限度あるんやなｗ
よくしかりしろよ
死んちゃうぞぉ！ｗ

今回の入手物
＋ペルソナ４ガイド
＋KEI画廊
+ CG SMART 6 / 12
+ Java/2

P.S.　マィク君ウザイ

To:?

2008-08-24T16:55:00.002-10:00

During my seventh grade back in homeland
my days are set to be the same everyday
woke up, to school, prep, than home...
i was confident
i know what im suppose to do
like picking cloth to wear
the texture of my uniform
the sound of classmates
the morning light though classroom window
thats where the affinity, where i belong

部屋

2008-08-23T16:13:00.008-10:00

for some people was wondering
this is my working desk right now...

ペルソナ4

2008-08-16T17:20:00.002-10:00

最近はこのゲームに買った...
面白そうを思う

Solitude

2008-07-30T12:08:00.000-10:00

where the train stops
where to move on
it was an end as well as a began
to the life of solitude

things will remaind the same
things will wait til the end
of the limite time in life
in a peaceful mind

Cage

2008-07-29T14:32:00.002-10:00

Broken wings like a cage bird
Cannot fly anymore
but still everyday
i stare up at the sky
hankering at the place i used to be

"Dont you hate the world outside"
people ask

"there is no limit of the sky
i still believe at the other side of sky...
there is place i do like
i believe......"

"but, did you find it?"

Fujoh Kirie - Kara no Kyoukai

中川翔子若いときの写真

2008-07-28T14:41:00.002-10:00

しょこたんかわいいでしょｗ
いいな(笑
お持ち帰りたいです

先のLAアニメフェア行きたいですけと
時間は無理そうなｗ
しょうこたんに会いたい！(涙)

註:僕はロリコンじゃありません

Chain

2008-07-27T11:51:00.001-10:00

the cold iron tied over the skin
Red marks form underneath the chain
The chillness flow over the body
mix with the heat of blood
and become a strange feeling
that impulse......
I cannot feel the ache
I cannot seal the memories
Of the first taste of blood
it was wonderful
.........and also sinful

飲み過ぎ

2008-07-26T23:43:00.001-10:00

お酒を飲みすぎてしました
今の頭と胃はすごく痛いです(笑
全部はお姉さまのせいだ！
ちくしょう！ｗ

Leave

2008-07-26T22:05:00.001-10:00

if there is a begining,
there is an end
people comes and goes
i just have to get use to it
there is a bit of warm feeling left in that hall
somehow
we met in luck, but leave in fate
it was quiet, this morning
with no distrub
i hold on to the door, to be the last one saying good bye
.........with no responce
from the empty room

Sky

2008-07-24T22:03:00.001-10:00

Blue sky mix with white clouds
Seem to be close
......to me
if that piece of glass wasnt exsist at all
i might can reach it
......with my hand
i always tring to reach out my hand
to feel, to love, and own
but its impossible
After all, im a cage bird
that glass was always in between,
my dream..........
.........and reality
all i can do is stare
to that unreachable sky outside
.........with half close eyes

Nightroad

2008-07-21T17:42:00.000-10:00

Walk though the busy street surrounded by lights
Coldness fills the air
where it chills my spine
where it frozes the darkness
in me

down the street with no purpuse
to the place of next
which i belong

in the nightroad

コミケ74 TM

2008-07-18T19:14:00.005-10:00

好樣的奈須跟武內竟然在二日目東A擺起同人攤來
以為C74不出展在企業區可以逃稅嗎= ="
女性向的二日目+TM眾不知道是甚麼慘況

TYPE-MOON コミケ74はやっぱり出展決定
二日目東Aです
待ちの行列は想像して出来ないな

前回の参加で八月からクレーム
↓
型月にペナルティ落選　
↓
コミケ幹部（１？）にとりなしを頼む　
↓
企業対応部断る　
↓
メンツが潰されたと怒り、東出展を打診　
↓
型月同人終了宣言済みなので竹箒で　←いまここ　
↓
阿鼻叫喚

絶望した！

「オタクっぽい」と感じてしまう男性の格好ランキング

2008-04-02T22:22:00.003-10:00

Vesper

2008-03-31T20:59:00.000-10:00

Last night’s dream
of i walking in road of vesper
with a bag of little things
keep droping
as i move every step
i couldnt find them back
since was all dark behind

finally, i reach home
a person is waiting
a little girl
sitting on sofa......smiling
the movement of lips
form into words
"welcome back"

now i remember...

Coins

2007-12-01T22:31:00.000-10:00

Fake coins with two sides the same
Although the fate is decided
Nevertheless i still hoping
maybe a bit
just a bit of chance
of dream to be true
one day
i can toss that coin into the river
and held the other coin tight

those coins are very much like me

Shades

2007-10-31T11:01:00.000-10:00

On the Frig, Few Sticker notes
and left over food
the sunset with Crimson color
stains the whole room
i cannot hear anything from outside
there is no car, no bird, no one
in this Autumn afternoon
i put myself against an empty corner
far away from window
then sang to sleep

痛覚残留

2007-09-29T07:54:00.000-10:00

電話のコール音が響く。
五回ほど鳴って音は止まり、留守番電話にきりかわった。
ぴー、という発進音のあとに、
今まで私が聞き慣れていたらしい声が流れる。
…私はけだるい体を動かして、ベッドのわきの時計を見る。
九月二十九日、午前七時二十三分。
しばらくそうしていると、
もう一度電話のコール音が響いた。
電話はそこできれた。
私も、そこできれそうになった。

声

2007-09-11T21:57:00.000-10:00

the sound of rain that hits the window
ten o`clock in the morning
i still don't wanna wake up
i lay an eye on the streets
Cars back and forth
like fireflies
PC screen still on
with few unread messages flashing
same as usual
stack of empty cups
i was drowsy
......without a cup of coffee

── and she said.

2007-09-10T09:13:00.000-10:00

なにもかもを受け入れるのなら、傷はつかない。
自分に合わない事も。
自分が嫌いな事も。
自分が認められない事も。
反発せずに受け入れてしまえば、傷はつかない。

なにもかもをはねのけるのなら、傷つくしかない。
自分に合ってる事も。
自分が好きな事も。
自分が認められる事も。
同意せずにはねのけてしまえば、傷つくしかない。

ふたつの心はガランドウ。
肯定と否定の両端しかないもの。
その中に、なにもないもの。
その中に、私がいるもの

／伽藍の洞

空の境界

2007-09-05T22:24:00.002-10:00

「キミ。人が空を飛ぶ理由ってわかるか？」

　私の唐突な謎かけにさあ、と首をすくめて、
　当たり前の事をしれっとあの人は言った。

「飛ぶワケも落ちるワケもわからないよ。
　だって一度も、僕はやった事がないから」

グレイの空

2007-09-03T22:12:00.000-10:00

The Sky reflects in my eyes is gray
always.......always stays in that color
Although it was like that for a long time
The rain was never once fallen down
i cant see anything above those clouds
The sky i wish for is not sunny
but a simple rain
just a drop of tear from sky....
Doesnt the matter what will happen after
i dont care
i just want to feel the rain

Sketch

2007-09-01T22:06:00.000-10:00

A new sketch book,
it was alway a difficulty to draw the first line
on that pure white paper
i dont know,
is it that hard to decide?
with a touch of pen,
i turn a paper in to love, or a junk
im afraid......
to move my arm
i trust my pen, but not myself...
maybe it was a good idea to leave it as it is
Without marking......

この空の続く場所にいますか？

2007-08-19T21:17:00.002-10:00

僕、好きのモノはなに？
僕、嫌いのモノはなに？
何でもいいと思うけど
何でも関係ないとして

ここは僕のいばしょ

ここは僕の存在を感じてる

Continued

2007-02-01T21:36:00.002-10:00

i met her last night...
at the same old playground i used to go when i was little
her face faded...
Can't really hear anything anymore
With her lips move
With strange feelings
i can actually understand...

"We will meet again, right?"

Last thing i said before awaken...
before i have time to right my name down...
before i can hear the answer...
Open my eyes wet...
Regrets...first time ever in life
it feel like ......(fin?)

空の境界ー映画化開催中!!

2007-01-12T20:00:00.000-10:00

嬉しいですね～
でも、何がそれ! アホ毛!?
なぜ式ちゃんはアホ毛あります
嫌だ! 萌じゃなくよ!

久米田先生VS赤松先生のまとめ

2006-12-28T21:50:00.001-10:00

^Click the Title^

なんか凄いなバトルだねｗ

さすが久米田先生ｗｗ

Symphonic Rain

2006-10-20T21:05:00.001-10:00

i dont know if anybody had play this game before
if do...you will understand what im talking about

i have feeling on Falsita Fawcett...
i feel the alikeness between me and her
she is kind to any one...but she's hypocritical in some ways
...just like her name
not to mention Liselsia's ending
instead of the death of Arietta
Falsita's action is the most that i am interesting about
attract by Chris because of his music? or something else?
after i play every endings
i see lot of pretense one on the other
Asino...Tortinita...even Chris himself