Suffocates

Today is the day when all things end
Today is the day I wish to have a fresh start

I was lazy
I was lost

All I was doing is to dream
to forget
the reality

I cannot bare this anymore
It suffocates me
I cant cry
I cant lie
to myself

This is it...

Know

I hate you for knowing my name
I hate you for trying to know me

I rather be alone than being with anyone
I been in a relationship but I know
I know I better off being by myself
at this empty room
fill with thoughts

Recreation

Sometimes
you just cant recreate things that has gone

Looking at your pass and think
If you could do it better
...or choosing the other way if possible

Like throwing a rock into a pond
It won't change anything
You only splash your self all over
and regret the fact you tried

I let go one and another one came up at me
at my most vulnerable moment

...I do not know how long again for this one to go
...to leave me at peace

Eyes

 

Those eyes of yours
Shows no sympathy

Ice cold without any sensation
 I cannot read your mind
I was never able to

Things perhaps mean the same to you
No matter what happens
The facial expression is flawless

Like a doll...

The more you look at me with those eyes of yours
Makes me feel like more in love with you
love that drowned me

TV

Dream of butterfly
or
is life a dream

Felt like looking into this world though TV
Felt like a third person of view to anything

Where is the channel botton?
I want to switch between shows, for something more.

Maybe I'm part of the show too, and can't seem to make a changes.

Twisting in this paradox of thoughts.
and
still can't find a way out

交差点

一年ぶりのポエム

一年ぶりの感触

自分は幸せと思う、一瞬でも

新たの自分になれると思う、一瞬でも

忘れたかも知れない

覚えたくないかも知れない

逃げるだけ

逃げるだけかも

やっばり

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同じの選択を迷う

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