Devotee

memory
is like drug


it follows you

follows and follows

when you realized
memories passed you and ahead
i become its devotee

i tried to get off from the bond

but still
i could
not...

Blindfold

Please blindfold me

and lead me the path

out of this maze


lets play a game of trust

i will follow your words

which knew its gonna hurt


it was short, but

happiness stops at the moment i cried

cried for the pain you and i putting upon


there wasnt any promised

just full of dreams behind the words

Beautiful

The most beautiful thing

is to die in dream

is to chase down the unknown


i could never imaging what would happen

after i fulfill the part

but so far

i felt wonderful

having a thing to risk my life for

last breath with smile

last view of you, with me

Remove

Page by page
One by one


i start removing my past

any trace
any mark


all the recollection

inside the trash box which cannot be recycled

Hoping i can find a new me

to start all over again

in an unknown town

to a moment i could remove my reminiscent

out of the cage i create

with hand of saver

Forward

[dream last night]

i was walking on the road of night

without any sight from feet away

friends start falling down one by one

as i passing them in every step

hands and body soiled with crimson blood

heat was there when i wipe it on my face

i know nothing

i remember nothing

but still

im heading forward...

Winter

With my last cig

it was cold during a winter night

smoke mix with the mist coming out from my mouth

i was comfort

slowly slowly

burning as taking a breath of cheerless

cars moving below my feet like a swarm of locusts

im the only one

the only one who halt

in the busy late winter night

[inspiration from south coast plaza which i love the most]

Disarrayed

How long i have not look in to the sky

after a long working day

How much struggle i have consumed

though out a daily life


that night, that moment

with that perfect scenery

deja vu with nothing to recall

i was disarrayed

Steelyard

open my eyes
i can see everything
everything i thought would be true

shut my mouth
i wont tell a word
word of things i do no wish to speak

two of them balance on my steelyard
nothing more or nothing less
to change of who i am

Path

unknown town
when i realized
im in somewhere beyond my memories

slowly walking
to the place i belong
the street lights have catch my eyes
i was infatuated
in the night

it wasn't important anymore
to find the way home
as long as the path
will leads me to an end

Bud

nothing last
like a red rose
petals fade and fallen
as the time passed

but it was beautiful
while bloomed

only ignorant thoughts in me
that i can hear from the bud
a dolce voice
calling me
.........calling my name

カミ

最近

めちゃ暑くって

髪を切っちゃいました

なんか

失敗作かな

超短いになった

まぁいいけど(笑

安いだし

ね

あしたの仕事が終わったら

久々の休日だ

楽しみ

駄目

今日は

引きこもりの第二日

まぁ一応メシくらいに外に出るも

いろいろやることがあるけど

大体的には家の中だな、ずっと

でも

まだ

何も完成してない

画も小説も

あたし

駄目かな(笑

Light

i do not like the light
it always tried to pull me
out from where i am

i do not like the light
it always tried to stick on me
with no where to hide

i closed my eyes
thought that i could escape
but all i can feel
is
you

Faith

i cannot tell you why
why i need you

i cannot explain you now
explain my action have done

maybe you are reading this
maybe im just unable to maintain myself
in the cycle of live

i cannot wish you to understand
since i am not truly knowing myself
but i do know

is
that

i do have the faith in you
for everything

Inverse

am i concentrating?

full of stuff in my head

is it only me, who tried to keep this going

really?




there is one thing

perhaps two, or even more

tell me

how many kiss do i need

to fulfill the part im missing

Fish

im a fish

with vision on both side

but i cannot see straight

in front

i had never thought about going above

to the place without you

or to loose anything i have right now

all i can do is swim

inside this consciousness

不眠

今日

いろいろがあった

なんか

寝れない

原因は自分なんですけど

鈍感のあたし


でも

その気持ちは間違いないよ(笑)

根性

いつも根性がないのあたし

罰として

今日から

週３．４回くらいに日記を書けますｗ

あたしのタブレットも届けましたから

ちゃんとしっかりしないならいけないと思う

せいいっぱい頑張りますヽ(´▽`)ノ

dolce

fiddle with my guitar

in the daylight of dawn

without any sleep

start pulling out the thoughts i had through the night

weave into a perfect match of the moment

to solve my wakefulness

to the dolce dream

両替

(みほちゃんのねこ？かなｗ)

最近

もう一つの仕事を受け取った

両替の仕事さぁ

一応みると

簡単な仕事やけど

でも

きっちりしなきゃいけないだから

すでに疲れた

一周間のトレーニングと今週の実戦(?)

体はもうボロボロ

ラブプラス＋

いよいよこのソフトを手に入りましたｗ
ＤＳは一台だけから連動が出来ないんだね
少々残念です(´･ω･`)

前よりいろんなものを入れましたのは聞きましたけど
なんのかな～と期待してるねｗ

頑張ります！　リンコちゃんｗ

Wish

it wasn't something i was wishing for
not something i wasn't it back
as a memory

rather than leaving it all behind
im more wishing it could never left anything inside
inside
inside of me
like nothing happened

but still
every time i closed my very own eyes
it keeps calling
calling
calling me
like it needs me

i cannot see where the voice from
i cannot stop myself wondering
............
.......
what is it?

Aim

aim at the point
which had caught my attention
with the movement of my arm
it turns to a perfect curve
that will fall at the place i want

not a lover or saver myself
for what i faced
it drops to the ground with expect
still
it disappointed me
because...

Forbidden

She said the words

which i hated the most

which trigger the impulse

of the forbidden part of self control

that

i want to kill her

at least

yes, at least

just one second

i want to kill

her

Turing

Turing at the next intersection

I start wondering

of left or right

I am alone without any sign

holding my cellphone and lost in this place

I am struggling

I am waiting

for the next signal

to direct me

out

コスプレ

今年のイベントのために

コスプレの衣装を作り始まった

あと２週間半くらいの時間

三つのコスチュムを出してること

精一杯がんばるわｗ

ラブプラス＋予約開始

あたしの本命はリンコやけど

ショットヘアのマナカもええねんｗ

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アルトネコ３

今日な

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これはこれは...ちょっと欲しくになったわｗ